side effects
here's one side effect of being home alone and making lots and lots of phonecalls to workers all day: my bottoms of my feet are sore from pacing around, just run a little raw. i guess i find myself walking around on the softest parts of my knobbly rug and doing loops from the kitchen nook into my bedroom and back. i do a lot of talking on the phone for my job lately, it doesnt leave me with a lot of energy to do it for fun.
my hands are dry af too. i guess when you cook yourself 3 meals a day (and im counting my frozen pizza yesterday as cooking), you have to do a lot of dishes. and that handwashing that maybe makes me feel better but also makes my skin crack.
here's a vignette:
i went to my mailbox to look for the thermometer my mom said she'd send me because it's not easy to get them anymore. i walked down 3 flights of stairs (i now know which levels have doors that push out, so i dont have to use the handle), opened my mailbox using the key, grabbed my mail and walked up a different set of stairs that have opposing door handles. i walk into my apt, i wash my hands using my elbow to squirt out the soap, i take a clorox wipe and wipe the doorknobs down, and my keys and basically anything else i can find.
this is probably totally unnecessary but it feels like what i should be doing?
i have never, ever been a germaphobe. i bite my nails, even when old ladies on the bus tell me to stop. in fact im kind of indignant about it. i def dont shower as often as some. i dont get sick that often either, but when i do im kind of a baby about it, and lately chest colds have turned into pneumonia, and i even had my first asthma attack a few years ago (as an adult? how does that happen?)
i did an inventory of what drugs i have my house. one steroid pill from the asthma, some newly prescribed anti-anxiety pills that are really just benedryls, a couple of muscle relaxers from when i hurt my back after tour, some left over nyquil and dayquil, a weird gel cap that is to stop coughing from when i couldnt sleep and had bronchitis. not sure any of that helps but its good to know what i have.
today i did go outside twice though. once i just took a walk around the block in the middle of the day and that felt really nice. a group of about 5 people were talking at a respectable distance from one another. some dude was yelling at a friend on a porch from his car window. a car had a bumper sticker in spanish that said "keep back because when i see a nice ass i stop short"
the second time, i walked to a part of the park i hadn't been to. i brought a phone that doesnt have service and i listened to a uk garage mix and found myself dancing around to it. there wasnt anyone in the park so i just went for it. i was doing some parade style strutting to make my way across a big field. eventually i saw 3 people on bikes but was like, whatever, we're all doing what we want these days. i probably wouldnt usually break into dance at dusk right by my house. but theres no one around so there no social control, and that part is kinda nice.
my hands are dry af too. i guess when you cook yourself 3 meals a day (and im counting my frozen pizza yesterday as cooking), you have to do a lot of dishes. and that handwashing that maybe makes me feel better but also makes my skin crack.
here's a vignette:
i went to my mailbox to look for the thermometer my mom said she'd send me because it's not easy to get them anymore. i walked down 3 flights of stairs (i now know which levels have doors that push out, so i dont have to use the handle), opened my mailbox using the key, grabbed my mail and walked up a different set of stairs that have opposing door handles. i walk into my apt, i wash my hands using my elbow to squirt out the soap, i take a clorox wipe and wipe the doorknobs down, and my keys and basically anything else i can find.
this is probably totally unnecessary but it feels like what i should be doing?
i have never, ever been a germaphobe. i bite my nails, even when old ladies on the bus tell me to stop. in fact im kind of indignant about it. i def dont shower as often as some. i dont get sick that often either, but when i do im kind of a baby about it, and lately chest colds have turned into pneumonia, and i even had my first asthma attack a few years ago (as an adult? how does that happen?)
i did an inventory of what drugs i have my house. one steroid pill from the asthma, some newly prescribed anti-anxiety pills that are really just benedryls, a couple of muscle relaxers from when i hurt my back after tour, some left over nyquil and dayquil, a weird gel cap that is to stop coughing from when i couldnt sleep and had bronchitis. not sure any of that helps but its good to know what i have.
today i did go outside twice though. once i just took a walk around the block in the middle of the day and that felt really nice. a group of about 5 people were talking at a respectable distance from one another. some dude was yelling at a friend on a porch from his car window. a car had a bumper sticker in spanish that said "keep back because when i see a nice ass i stop short"
the second time, i walked to a part of the park i hadn't been to. i brought a phone that doesnt have service and i listened to a uk garage mix and found myself dancing around to it. there wasnt anyone in the park so i just went for it. i was doing some parade style strutting to make my way across a big field. eventually i saw 3 people on bikes but was like, whatever, we're all doing what we want these days. i probably wouldnt usually break into dance at dusk right by my house. but theres no one around so there no social control, and that part is kinda nice.
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