in the eye of the hurricane there is silence, just for a moment

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I'm working really hard these days. So much video conferencing, urgency, and new concepts hurts my brain. I'm not trying to keep up with anything beyond local needs and solutions. I see my lane, and I'm sticking too it. building it out. Making a path by walking.

And Im trying to be good. Getting no more intimate than an outdoor meet up feet apart. But when I hear the national news, nothing seems enough. It's probably better that I can't back seat analyze all the shoulda woulda could a for our society, our government. 

But I fear we're in the calm before something really shattering. We're antsy. We're worried about the fears we know: poverty, homelessness, loneliness. I hate to even speak into existence what we can't imagine.

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